The older I got the more I dreamed. Yet the more I was broken by dreams, living in a limbo sort of place between reality and who I really was.
By the time I was a freshman in highschool I was pretty much lost. I had no idea where my future would lead me. The older I got the more I got the questions, "What do you want to do in college?" I had no idea. Be a nurse? A english Major?
One evening I found a bucket list I had made in middle school. Those dreams, I know now, could never be accoplished in my lifetime. They were simply too big.
Yet at the same time were they simply too small?
To live a full-filled life, to truly grasp the saying you only live only, you must realize our dreams for this world are simply too small. The one dream, the one truth, we can truly conquer is the dream to live for Christ. What Joy!
Of all the dreams I've written on my bucket list, only one can bring true happiness. Because in a hundred and fifty years everyone you know and will know will be dead. No one can remember what great goals you did. Only God knows in heaven that you lived your for His glory.
But it's fine to have dreams. As long as they don't take hold you of you, making you a man broken by dreams. Yet my greatest dream is to die and be forever in heave worshiping with all thr saints for all ages on the throne. Heaven itself will be much more lovely than my greatest dream of seeing the nothern lights. And hey....maybe there will be something more beautiful than the nothern lights in heaven for my eyes to see! For this world is simply a preview of what's to come.
I've decided to spend my life as a missionary. I am currently in poland, soon to go back home to study lanague for a few years, before hoping to re-locate permantely. This dream is nothing like I thought in middle school. And stull I have no idea of the dream the Lord has in store for me, which could look completely different.
I've heard so many times surrending all to Christ is giving up dreams of this world. It's being broken by dreams. Is this true? No, for I believe with all my heart that:
To live for Christ is to give up all our dreams, it is the greatest dream we could possible comprehend.
Maya....Simply a girl on a journey to live for her lord. Check by Efflorescence for the scribblings of this life.